anyone heard of the shooting in virginia tech?

i would like to pay my respects for the 32 dead and that thier souls may rest in peace, this very tragic event-which was even worse than the columbine high school shootings-deserve a say.

when i first saw the headlines on newpaper while walking out from school today, the first thing that came into my mind was that that person was probably mental. yeah well, look at the world at it's current state. i'm not being a cynic, i'm just telling the truth.

but when you think about it, that man (who has not yet been identified) shot himself in the end. i guess he knew his fate.

i guess i'm not allowed to completely judge and comment about the person who shot the people or anything more but i'm allowed have my own theories.

well this event, i wouldn't say it would only happen in america, although people just assume that chances are is usually there due to influence of tv and allowing possesion of guns. but really, when you think of it, it can happen anywhere and at anytime. i got to admit, somehow, over here, you needn't check your back every time when you walk in shopping centres or just going back to your home, watching for guns or anything that is deadly. the only thing you need to pay attention to are the cars which are mostly the death cause.

sometimes you must wonder why in the world do people start these shootings? to be remembered? to prove something significant? you know we have these campaigns everyday about civil rights, blah blah blah and a yak yak yak, yet, we fail to capture the attention to these people who seem to need it the most.

i mean honestly, there's got to be some reason why all these happen, after all, aren't we thought to believe everyone has a heart? even those we classify as crazy, mental, etc. i guess it comes to a certain extent that we can't help them, but to put it a point, our world is really helpless, or is it?

today during religious education, a cartoon titiled the crippled lamb was shown and i believe it was suppose to tell us that god sent us here for a reason and everyone has something special within them and has a purpose here in life.

yeah well, it comes to a point where we'll never find the purpose and why we're here at all. my faith is really weak, which i'm trying to strengthen but i can't seem to find the right answer in all my questions. perhaps i should stop doubting and questioning, but it's hard you know. i mean common, take this tragic event, it really upsets me to no end. with all this constant happenings, sometimes i really don't blame myself.

and that's the truth.